Megan Fox has been MIA for a long time, and we’ve been wondering why for years! When she starred in the Transformers movie alongside Shia LaBeouf, the 33-year-old actress was hailed as the next big thing. Megan spoke candidly about how, following the release of Jennifer’s Body (2009), she hit a “breaking point” for being sexualized not just in movies, but also by the media, in an interview with Entertainment Tonight. Fox revealed that that happened every day of her life, with every project and producer she worked with, leading up to a breaking point.

To commemorate the tenth anniversary of the horror comedy, in which Fox played as the titular character, Fox sat down with Diablo Cody, the film’s writer and executive producer, for an in-depth conversation about their respective careers.

“It wasn’t just that movie, it was every day of my life, all the time, with every project I worked on and every producer I worked with,” she explained. “It preceded a breaking point for me.”

“I think I had a genuine psychological breakdown where I wanted just nothing to do,” she continued. “I didn’t want to be seen, I didn’t want to have to take a photo, do a magazine, walk a carpet, I didn’t want to be seen in public at all because the fear, and the belief, and the absolute certainty that I was going to be mocked, or spat at, or someone was going to yell at me, or people would stone me or savage me for just being out… so I went through a very dark moment after that.”

Megan has been busy working on movies and TV series, creating her own show, parenting her three children, and remaining out of the public spotlight in the years since she was all over the cinema screens.

It was while she was pregnant with her first kid, Noah Shannon Green, 7, with husband Brian Austin Green, that she experienced her “first real breakthrough” and had her mind opened up. “And then another kid, and then another kid and with every kid, I feel like that’s always been the doorway into a better version of myself,” Fox explained.

Fox claimed that she avoided being spotted in public because she was afraid of being “mocked,” “spat at,” or “yelled at.”

“I didn’t look perfect. I was too fat. I was too thin. I was stupid. I was offensive. I was a waste of space. I was a bad actress, whatever. All of the things you can think of, I anticipated experiencing that because my belief system was from what I had experienced,” she said.

Due to the fact that the movement had not yet begun, the actress also mentioned how her #MeToo experiences were treated with a lack of curiosity and compassion. She said that her stories were dismissed because she was “ahead of her time” in sharing them.

“I feel like I was sort of out and in front of the #MeToo movement before the #MeToo movement happened, I was speaking out and saying, ‘Hey, these things are happening to me and they’re not OK,'” Fox said. “And everyone was like, ‘Oh well, f**k you. We don’t care, you deserve it.’ Because everybody talked about how you looked or how you dressed or the jokes you made.”

Megan informed Diablo that she wasn’t bothered by the negative reviews for Jennifer’s Body since she was dealing with so much other. She stated:

“There was so much going on with me at that time, that movie being picked apart was not at the top of [my list of concerns]. Because I had such a fraught relationship with the public and the media and journalists, and I was struggling so much at that time in general, this didn’t stand out as a particularly painful moment, it was just part of the mix.”