Former Playboy model Holly Madison has opened up about her first s**ual encounter with the late Hugh Hefner, calling it a “traumatic” experience.

Speaking on the “Power: Hugh Hefner” podcast on Monday, Madison recalled being “wasted” and feeling embarrassed and mortified after Hefner was “literally pushed on top of” her.

She went on to describe how the experience had an emotional impact on her that she had not anticipated.

Madison, who dated Hefner from 2001 to 2008, said that she and a group of women had gone back to the Playboy Mansion with the publisher one night after being out at a club.

Although she had not expected to have s** that night, she said she felt pressure to comply due to the expectation that all the women in the group were expected to sleep with Hefner.

Despite admiring Hefner and looking up to him at the time, Madison said she found the group aspect of the encounter “out of my comfort zone” and was horrified that everyone would know they had slept together.

She felt pressured to stay at the mansion that night, adding that by moving in with Hefner afterwards, she felt she was demanding respect.

Madison’s revelations come ahead of the A&E docuseries “Secrets of Playboy,” which premieres in January and explores her toxic relationship with Hefner.

In previews for the show, Madison describes feeling trapped in a cycle of “gross things” and being made to feel like she needed to conform to a certain standard of appearance.

Hefner died in September 2017 at the age of 91 from cardiac arrest and sepsis.

Holly Madison, a former Playboy model, recently spoke out about her first s**ual experience with Hugh Hefner, describing it as a traumatic event.

She appeared on the “Power: Hugh Hefner” podcast on Monday, where she revealed that she was “wasted” and felt humiliated and embarrassed after Hefner was “literally pushed on top of” her.

She had not expected to have s** that night, but felt pressured to comply with the expectation that all women in the group were expected to sleep with Hefner.

Madison, who dated Hefner from 2001 to 2008, explained that she and a group of women had gone back to the Playboy Mansion with the publisher one night after being out at a club.

While she admired Hefner and looked up to him at the time, Madison found the group aspect of the encounter “out of my comfort zone”.

She felt horrified that everyone would know they had slept together, and felt pressured to stay at the mansion that night.

Madison said that by moving in with Hefner afterwards, she felt she was demanding respect.

She revealed that the experience had an emotional impact on her that she had not anticipated.

Madison’s revelations come ahead of the A&E docuseries “Secrets of Playboy,” which premieres in January and explores her toxic relationship with Hefner.

In previews for the show, Madison describes feeling trapped in a cycle of “gross things” and being made to feel like she needed to conform to a certain standard of appearance.

The revelations are part of Madison’s efforts to shed light on the darker side of the Playboy Mansion.

Holly Madison has spoken out about her first s**ual experience with the late Hugh Hefner, describing it as traumatic.

Speaking on the “Power: Hugh Hefner” podcast, Madison revealed that she was “wasted” and felt humiliated and embarrassed after being “literally pushed on top of” by Hefner.

Madison, who dated Hefner from 2001 to 2008, explained that she and a group of women had gone back to the Playboy Mansion with the publisher one night after being out at a club.

Despite admiring Hefner and looking up to him at the time, Madison found the group aspect of the encounter “out of my comfort zone”.

She felt horrified that everyone would know they had slept together, and felt pressured to stay at the mansion that night.

Madison said that by moving in with Hefner afterwards, she felt she was demanding respect.

She revealed that the experience had an emotional impact on her that she had not anticipated.

Madison’s revelations come ahead of the A&E docuseries “Secrets of Playboy,” which premieres in January and explores her toxic relationship with Hefner.

In previews for the show, Madison describes feeling trapped in a cycle of “gross things” and being made to feel like she needed to conform to a certain standard of appearance.

The ex-Playmate hopes to shed light on the darker side of the Playboy Mansion and her toxic relationship with Hefner.

Holly Madison has opened up about her first s**ual experience with Hugh Hefner, describing it as traumatic.