Billie Eilish has shown time and time again that she can do everything she sets her mind to. Whether it’s directing all of her music videos or entirely changing her appearance. The singer is “calling the shots,” as Elle described it in its October cover story.

Happier Than Ever, Eilish’s most recent album, landed at number one and is a piece of art she is very proud of. The Grammy Award-winning musician is just 19 years old, and her viral song “Ocean Eyes” introduced her to the world while she was still a teenager. Eilish, who is no longer 13, has come under fire for altering her “signature” black and green hair and for her choice to wear more exposing clothing, for which she has even lost followers.

She spoke about the backlash she’s gotten for the outfits she wears, her sexuality, and the standards she’s held to.

“People hold on to these memories and have an attachment [to her past looks],” the 19-year-old “Bad Guy” singer told Elle magazine in its October edition, which was released on Thursday, September 23. “But it’s very dehumanizing. I lost 100,000 followers just because of the boobs. People are scared of big boobs.”

People seem to feel compelled to comment on whatever the “bad guy” singer is wearing. “The other day, I decided to wear a tank top. It wasn’t even a provocative shirt. But I know people are going to say, ‘Holy f–k, she’s dressing sexy and trying to make a statement,'” she continued. “And I’m like, ‘No, I’m not. It’s 500 degrees and I just want to wear a tank top.'”

The Grammy winner also discussed the double standards she encountered growing up in the limelight as a teenager.

“Or my sexuality!” she said to the publication. “Like, oh yeah, that’s everyone else’s business, right? No. Where’s that energy with men?”

According to Eilish, she has never desired a life in the limelight. “I just wanted to make a song once, and then I kept making songs. I never said, ‘Hey, pay attention to my life,'” she remarked. “All my friends know I don’t wanna see any of [the negative chatter]. When people send me something mean, it hurts my soul.”

Madonna was also interviewed by the magazine, and she likened the “Lovely” singer’s experience in the music business to her own.

“The problem is, we still live in a very sexist world where women are put into categories. You’re either in the virgin category or the whole category. Billie started off in a non-sexualized category, not pandering to the masses and not using her sexuality in any way, which is her choice and God bless her for that—after all, she’s been a teenager all this time. [But] if she wants to turn around and take photographs where she is portrayed as a feminine woman, showing her body in a way that she hasn’t in the past, then why should she be punished for it?” Madonna went on to say that there is a gender divide when it comes to males altering their appearance vs women changing their appearance. “Women should be able to portray themselves in any way they want. If Billie were a man, no one would be writing about this. A man can show up dressed in a suit and tie for the first three years of his career, and then the next month he could be dressed like Prince or Mick Jagger, shirt off, wearing eyeliner, and no one would say a word.”

Eilish also said that the major reason she colored her hair blonde was to avoid being recognized wherever she went. “I couldn’t go anywhere with that hair because it was so obviously me. I wanted anonymity.” It was a life-changing choice for her. “I went to a park with a friend, and I was like, ‘No, I can’t take off my hood!’ I was terrified of the paparazzi and these stalkers I’ve had. But my friend was like, ‘Don’t worry: You’re okay. Nothing’s gonna happen.’ And I took my hood off, and I felt like a new person,” the singer of “Lost Cause” said.

The California native previously made waves in May when she debuted her new blonde hair and wore a corset top on the cover of Vogue U.K.

“Big dresses were my favorite thing when I was a kid,” Eilish said in a behind-the-scenes interview with Vogue on September 16 while getting ready for the Met gala. “I had so many dresses. I would wear a dress every single day. It’s really body image that tore that s—t down. Why do you think I’ve been dressing the way I have for years?”